It is amazing how technology works... After i changed my status in Facebook, "alot" of msgs came popping in (either SMS, Wall-to-Wall, MSN..). Well, this facebook... *Speechless* Next time, i dun think i will meddle with those dangerous buttons anymore!
Anyway, it is also amazing what ppl said to you after you break up.. Now i heard stories from "friends" (reason for " " is cos' , can they be considered a friend if they spilled things about u?).. These stories are really so shocking & perhaps disgusting... If they are true, i am really speechless.. How can anyone commit the same things over n over again??? Personality disorder? Character flaw? Con - guy? Aiyo ~~~ I think time will tell lo ~
If it is true, i am going to be super mad!
And !!! I dunno wat i will do...
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 3:58 PM
Friday, August 29, 2008
I broke up..
So finally after so many hipcups, i have finally broken up with Terry.
Guess, only 2 of us know the true story behind the breakup. It is complicated..
Apart from " We are from 2 different worlds" , there are one more sensitive issue.
From this issue, i know he is not the one for me.
From our relationship, i think he might have discovered that he should probably stayed single forever. Well.. bt that's not possible cos' he is the only son.
Whatever it is, my last thoughts regarding the relationship are:
' True love only exists when 2 people stayed together to solve problems instead of running away.'
And an old bumpkin saying but yet so true:
' He will be the one for you if he is willing to stay by you through sickness, troubles & happiness.'
And finally:
'Love is not only about finding "The One" cos' there will never be "The One" without the willingness to sacrifice, change, adapt and be magnanimous towards each other differences/flaws.'
~ Goodbye my 1st ♥ ~
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 6:10 PM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I DID IT!!!!
Finally...I DID IT!!!! Yeshh~~~ After such a long long wait.... Trying, failing, trying again.. I DID IT!!!! I, TJM PASSED MY DRIVING!
OMG... 2 Years & 7 attempts... Finally!!!
I was so damm emotional yst! Right before the tester gave me the results, i was already tearing! I think he was shocked. He was counting my attempts & asked me wat happened.. I told him i have developed phobia for driving test le. (The whole time i was crying..) Come to think of it.. So embarassing!!!
Then when he finally told me, i passed! I was like, "Thank you.. thank you.. thank you.." So full of graditude, emotions n i dunno wat.. Just from the bottom of my heart, i said," Thank you". Think he can feel it too lo~ I think i am crying non-stop (ppl must have tot i failed)...
My teacher took 1 look at me and he tot i failed again! When i told him i passed, he was like.. " Passed 了,还哭!吓我一跳!" Then we hugged each other. Haha~ So dramatic... Then i cried back into BBDC to watch the video. The staff was shocked too. She asked, " Why you cry?" Then i told her the "story".. (Sigh~ jia lat nowadays very easy to cry... *must stop le*) Okie, finally i composed myself. But my eyes n nose still red red ma.. Den the guy infront of me asked,"需要这么激动吗?”So "story-time" again. Well basically, everyone (5ppl) who heard my story was like congrating me... LOL~
I heard from the staff, that yesterday has the highest passing rate. Was talking to an NUS guy who jus passed also (So qiao!), tt this month 的风水旺BBDC, so everyone must come here. Haha~ I think it is really 老天再帮我。。。 Cos initially, it wa going to rain de but when it is my turn to test, the sun came out. *HENG~* Then, after the video & applied for license, it was raining cats & dogs! But the amazing thing is, it seems the clouds are concentrated at BBDC only.
The NUS guy: 好像一个盖子喔~
Me:因该是GOD在洒 HolyWater。
The NUS guy:哈哈是咯。。。 *Bless you, bless you*!
After rushing home, i rushed to Wieland gathering @ Keppel Club ( noo. it's not at Marina @ Keppel Bay). Tried the Permankan Restuarant , tot that food was OK. But the desert was super! So nice!!! Love to hang out with them.. Well, cos i make them happy & they make me happy? LOL~ Anyway, Lena is leaving for Germany (she's going Bali today thou)... * Sad sad* Bye Lena, if we have fate, we shall meet once again... 。◕‿◕。
Sigh~~~ 7 attempts.. Like my ah gong's curse. My dad said my ah gong also tried 7 times before passing. He is super stubborn & refused to pay kopi-money... As the eldest granddaughter, think the "curse" passed to me. Haha~ (Cos' my brother got his driving license from army..)
Anyway, from now on.. somebody will not 看扁女人!Then i remember the "promise" i once made to 老天. I said if i ever passed my driving, i dun mind dying in a traffic accident. This makes me think of another "promise": 如果另外一个姻缘可以在复合,我愿意放弃我的姻缘。”Just wanna tell God, i have not forgotten.. If he decided to carry out his part of deal, so be it... I have already done my best.. I think i have really change alot. I am really 乖。
Guess this is my 命 ba... Haha~
mmm... 7 attempts.. is it worth celebrating?
Qsn: Will my dad give me a car? Ans: Obviously, NOT!!!
Qsn: Will Terry give me a reward? Ans: Probably, NOT!
Qsn: Will i give myself a present? Ans: Think nope ba... Have to save up to treat ppl right? LOL~
Okok.. enuf... now shall concentrate on other things le..
This has finally come to an end...
Thank you....
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 10:03 AM
Monday, August 25, 2008
Uplifting my mood...
Recently, my emotions have been going on a roller coaster ride...
Up, Down, Up, Down.... Woahh~~ Seriously, dunno what i am doing anymore! So affected by other's words and actions towards me. Which i think now, is quite ridiculous.
Cos' why am i so affected by people who do not even know me inside-out, treasure me and really want the best for me?
So... I am trying very hard to sort my thoughts, feelings, emotions, IQ, EQ and then finally!!!
I have slightlyenlightened myself today! Hope it will not go down anymore...
All thanks to my friends who have been giving me hints here and there. You may not have physically tell me stuff that enlightened me but oh well..
i still get inspirations from your stuff.
For example:
Gw:
"Somehow wonder why is it so hard to maintain a people-to-people relationship. how come we always expect more.. more and more and better, better and even better....
it's good to want to improve and enjoy a better understanding..but is it really that good?
somehow, someone.. some people will get hurt through the process..
trying all their best to live up to the standards of how others expect/want them to be like.....
a tiring yet challenging process..."
Jess:
- All her quick recovery incidents... Her philosophy in life, relationship & work...
Rl:
- Her simple way of treating unjust behaviours towards her & +ve outlook to life
Fiona:
- Her never-ending online counselling (LOL~) & sweet recalls of the past...
Oh yea... Dear friends,do not be surprisedby the above... Thou you may know how rocky my r/s was (quarrels & stuff), T is NOTyet a Monster...
He is just very lost in love.. Perhaps like me (only tt i have an excuse) I believe, everyone must be given the chance to love again.
We both have learnt our lessons, it is now the time to rectify the mistakes...
Promises made, promises kept, promises forgotten & new ones found again...
p/s. so do not need to worry bout me, till next time... 。◕‿◕。
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 2:52 PM
Friday, August 22, 2008
Least Gloomy Post
I realized my blog has become gloomy & depressing recently.. Mmm so decided to upload some "fun" things ba... 。◕‿◕。
During the weekend, i accompanied T to Cashflow Competition @ Millenia Tower. Aiyo, the organizers hor~ think really cannot make it! The flow is so slow & they dun even know wat they are doing lo!
Anyway, during the preliminary round, i sat beside T & accompanied him thru out the game (it's actually something like Monopoly but the game cost $300/box!!!). Then one of the organizer asked me if i am teacher in charge... -_-" OMG~ NO WAY! Den another one came & teased us that T has bring along a P.A. LOL~ Abit peiseh lei... Cos while T was playing, i was helping him with the money and stuff...
I think i gave him luck (haha~ :P) so he went to the semi-finals the next day. Bt on Sunday, i decided not to stay by him cos scared later make him lose face. You know, like ppl will say, "Why go competition, need your gf to sit beside you de?" Haha~ So i went to Suntec Convention & tried to zzz for 1.5hrs! Unfortunately, he didnt win this time.. :( (Told u i gave him luck! LOL~)
Basically, we spent Sat & Sun around Suntec & Marina! We went to the invest fair so many times lo! Took alot of freebies but nothing really interesting for me. Well did learn something, but regarding investment: I AM STILL A NOOB! 。◕‿◕。
Oh yea! I went to a bar on Tuesday at Clarke Quay. It is called Martin's Entertainment & wooo~ it's very cosy & fun! I mean there are no fancy decorations, the ambience was just ok & it was pretty ulu (you wont notice the club when walking along the street). But it is COOL!
WHY?
Cos' you get to sing unlimited K-songs!!! Haha~ Not many ppl ma! Den you can play pool too! I quite like this place! 。◕‿◕。
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 4:52 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
感言(一)
感言(一)
我知道他们对你很重要 - 是你的全部, 而我什么都不是。。。
所以可以很容易地把我丢弃。。。
所以可以不顾我的感受,任意地糟蹋我。。。
我在你心中真的就是如此而已吗?
美丽,灿烂的玫瑰花,也会因此而凋谢。。。
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 8:41 PM
Life is so Fed Up @ Times!!!
Life is so FED - UP @ times!
Like the table tennis match, after waiting for so long (48 years) just when we tot we might have a tiny weeny chance of getting GOLD, we lost... Ok, maybe we've already foresee that it's not possble for us to beat China bt @ least we still hope, right?
Yea, FED - UP!
Another example: Like when u 好心 help ppl to choose modules n stuff, ppl in the end will just put the blame on u for the modules they get. Was like OMG... You are the one who dont bother to go find other modules & den when i suggest this n that, you rejected everything! (I can forgive & forget about this... ) I am not the one who asked you choose tt elective wor. I told you to go for E.R, since you are super not interested. Bt den, you asked me to help u go bid for tt cos u juz want to secure a module. Now the project grp can only have max 3 ppl (not tt i have any knowledge of it @ the beginning), you started throwing blames on me. Aiyo~~~~ Den drop elective & try to secure E.R ba... Sigh!!! Lucky there will be no next semester!
Are u really my friend???? -_-"
Yea, FED - UP!
See something relaxing ba...
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 1:35 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Before i Fall in Love
CoCo Lee - Before I Fall in Love
My heart says we've got something real Can I trust the way I feel Cuz my heart's been fooled before Am I'm just seeing what I want to see Or is it true Could you really be
♥ Someone to have and hold With all my heart and soul I need to know Before I fall in love Someone who'll stay around Through all my ups and downs So tell me now Before I fall in love
♥♥ And I'm at the point of no return So afraid of getting burned But I wanna take a chance Oh please Give me a reason to believe Say you're the one that you'll always be
♥♥♥ Someone to have and hold With all my heart and soul I need to know Before I fall in love Someone who'll stay around Through all my ups and downs So tell me now Before I fall in love
♥♥ It's been so hard for me To give my heart away But I would give my everything Just to hear you say...
♥ Someone to have and hold With all my heart and soul I need to know Before I fall in love Someone who'll stay around Through all my ups and downs So tell me now Before I fall in love
I have tried to make everything as fair as possible! (It's hard to draw with a mouse!)
Well, as for the position... *It's a secret "不能说的秘密"...*
(Aiya, actually dun need to care much bout' it)
So: "NO MORE COMPLAINTS!" Hehe~ 。◕‿◕。
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 11:39 AM
Monday, August 4, 2008
i H.A.T.E bidding !!!
Bidding Season again... Today is just the starting of bidding & already has 7 ppl fighting for 5 vacancies...
(-_- ") ......
I wish i have 2000+++++ Pts...
P/s. Was talking to Vin yst... He said i have seems to grown up le.. Last time when i was in Poly, still think like a kid.. Haha~ I never know i am a kid once..
Miss the good old days... :)
Vin like all my other friends will always have a special place in my heart. Like this: