Thursday, May 8, 2008
OVER OVER OVER!!!!!!
Exams Over!!!
Disclaimer: The below conversation, is written to the best of my memories
Went to Muthu's Curry to makan after exam...
T: Hey, we going to Muthu's curry to eat...
Xt: *shocked* JM eat curry de meh???
T: They want to go... We go la... Go there & see if there's anythng u eat, ok?
JM: *roll my eyes* yea ok... (i'm anything de, even thou nt my fav choice)
Walking to car....
Xt: Feel like eating NYDC lei... JM why not we go eat other stuff?
JM: mmm.. sounds like not bad... i dun really want to eat Indian anyway..
Xt: Yea.. i also dun feel like eating Indian today...
Outside Muthu....
T: Got anything u can eat? Can right?
JM: Why dont you all go & eat, then Xt & i go other places?
T: *angry* If dont eat together, wouldn't it be like anti-social? Aiya, up to u all la... Want to go den go! *go inside Muthu*
Xt: *look at me* u better think carefully... he's angry le wor.. if u dun eat, it will be worse..
JM: He say till like tis le, we can dont go in ma?
After Muthu....
T: Ahey... they want to go for a drink.. you want to go?
JM: yea ok...
T: you dun want, i can send u home first de...
JM: nvm... it's ok, i can go drink
T: you want to go or not? Later u show those bu shuang de face
--> All the time, i was showing the neutral face <---
JM: i already said i want to go...
Xt: Ahey T... JM dun have legs ah? If she want to go home, she can take mrt home herself...
JM: Aiya.. nvm.. he is like tt one...
Later in private...
JM: yea.. he will agreed to his frens' request before asking me if i wanna join in de... n he always speak to me like tt when he is pissed with me.. so dun feel qi guai
Xt: yea i know.. T mentioned before tt his friends are very important to him... bt u should also tell him wat u feel...
I dunno if the above conversation, been potrayed if i am the victim and T is the big bully...
I admit i have some faults, as in i should know tt, i shouldjuz go along with the crowd... and yea... leaving the group = anti-social = make him lose face (coz all his grpmates)...
Bt...
i dun feel like eating Indian + Xt also dun feel like eating = Encourage me to eat other stuff
Yea... bt need to be so mean ma?
Anyway, really show T bad face through out Yst...
And implied tt i dun really want to go out with him today...
(even tt means i have to go out alone)
Bt today, i feel kinda bad & dun think should be so mean
So, i initiate to SMS him...
JM: Yo. U still wanna go out with me?
T: Anything lor.
JM: U want to see me or nt? Dun want to appear to be forcing u. If so, wat time u are done?
T: I tot yst u said you willl be going down town no matter wat? Bt i will be with ZF leh.
JM: Yes, i will still be going down.
T: Den nvm. You go ahead ba.
JM: Fine. Seems like u dun care le. I took the 1st move bt u just treat me like tis.
T: * no reply* + *probably boycott me till i initiate to contact him again*
I also dunno wat happen in my r/s. How come i see other ppl, whenever they quarreled, both parties will see their own faults. And the guys will usually be the 1st one to initiate patch up.
For my case, (i really think very hard), he only initiate to say sorry sincerely for 2 or 3 times only.
2 times i think is: coz he scolded me n he said he shouldnt scold me. Then 1 time is tt: he pasted the 'I'm sorry' thing in his car. All these is during the so called "Honeymoon Period"
After which, no more... He always said, he wait for me to cool down n contact him 1st before he will contact me. Bt dun u think, i'm always the one who is like.... *argg.. i dunno* Maybe, coz everything is my fault? I'm always making things out of nothing?
Bt still, this give him the reason, to just let things be the way it is? Let things be till i will suddenly mood change back to happy n forgiving mode? I dunno...
Wat do u think?
p/s. i dunno if he'll see this post.. n if u'll do, u'll probably be mad n super pissed off with me... n yea.. i kinda know wat will happen... to be honest, i'm kinda afraid too... bt... i need to speak off my mind.. else it'll be haunting my sleep everyday....
Posted by *+* xiAo mIn *+* at 10:47 AM
